a lesson in alliteration.

some singers sing of sadness like it's part of the scene

if you're going, go with gladness if you're going without me

i hear a hope that i've been humming and i know it by heart
i laughed at lessons learned from leaving and i long for fresh starts
i hear a song that's sung in sorrow is the sweetest of psalms
if you're longing for allegiance than look no further at all

if a magnet makes a motion in the map of your mind
then the dread and dark inside me can be moved yet with time
if a rock that's rolled away remakes all that i see
then the corpse that i've been carrying is not a burden to me

though i've never seen the seaside i still know it exists
i own the idea of the ocean without taking part in its bliss
i wish the waves would wash within me just as well as without
i feel the farthest i can fathom is a life with more faith than with doubt

if aurorae borialis started back in the deep
if the flares that fired the faithfull we're once within the suns reach
holding ships that sail the sunlight just as well as the wind
the same breeze that blows and billows will breach the beaches of man

i hear a hope that i've been humming and i know it by heart
i laughed at lessons learned from leaving and i long for fresh starts
i hear a song that's sung in sorrow is the sweetest of psalms
if you're longing for allegiance than look no further at all

life is fleeting, but it is good

I wish I didn't feel it

Anxious in my bones

It's just that when I see the sunrise

I always think of home

My mom and dad

The brother I never see

They're all I have

They are part of me

And we are family

And that will be enough for me

I wish that I could know you

If only for a time

I wish that you weren't leaving

And I could walk that line

It seems so short

Maybe It'll be enough

A ticking clock

But still we try to call it love

But while you're here you're a sight to see

And that will be enough for me

I wish I didn't feel it

Like I was still fifteen

And every choice I'm making

Will be the end of me

Have faith, be still

I swear I still believe

It's not as bad

As I paint it out to be

I have a lot

So I guess much is required of me

It seems I give

Much less than I receive

Just say the word and I'll be free

And that will be enough for me

indie alt country album?

So I'm thinking since quick on my feet lets me play electric guitar a lot, i want to play some more acoustic for my album. I'm debating what name to release it under. There's Caleb, Look for Cars! but that feels more like a straight up pop punk / indie pop band. There's also the option to play under my name, and also Saint Albans. But here's the song order I've had in my head today.

1. B&T (somewhere between the indie pop and acoustic arrangements)
2. Thailand (with acoustic and electric parts)
3. It's a Question of Self Esteem (short acoustic song)
4. Casey Stocksmith (still folky, def piano and two guitars, maybe full band)
5. Faded Photo (CLfC version)
6. 12.21.2.14 (don't really know how to arrange this one)
7. Stars (Flushed out CLfC version)
8. Folksplosion (gang vox, room percussion)
9. Wolfsong (acoustic)
10. In My Memory (full band rock version)

Decided to scrap How to steal third, love and grace, and under a tree. Just don't feel like those songs are how i want to sound anymore, and more importantly, i decided they weren't that great. I've been playing around with bringing back Autumn, an old sooybeans song, and doing it all folky. But I think that'll be more of a live song till I get more comfortable with it.

Quick On My Feet EP is almost done recording.

1. Joe v. Volcano
2. Five Talents
3. Cody's Favorite
4. This Is Love
5. The Light is Taking Me to Pieces

Quick on my feet has a show on the 20th. Stoked.

it's a question of self esteem

it's a question of self esteem

that's why i care so much that you're not with me

it's not that i miss your warm embrace

it's just that he has taken my place

when i see our old friends at the bar

they are sure to ask how you are

i say i'm sure you're doing fine

it's just that you are no longer mine

lover, look what you've done to yourself

cover yourself up with lies

suffer this for no one else

it's just that you are no longer mine

I'll be with you, my darling, when morning is nigh
And the whispers of the night wind go past with a sigh
For my heart is with you always as my thoughts drift to home
And the memories I hold near me where ever I roam

I'll come home someday just to have you by my side
For my dreams pull me back there like the moon pulls back the tide
For I will love you dear until the seas run dry
I am yours now and forever 'til the stars fall from the sky

I'll be with you, my darling, when sunset fills the sky
And the echos of the mountains are hushed by and by
For as darkness fills the evening and my thoughts drift to home
I'll remember you are with me where ever I roam

I'll come home someday just to have you by my side
For my dreams pull me back there like the moon pulls back the tide
For I will love you dear until the seas run dry
I am yours now and forever 'til the stars fall from the sky

I'll be with you, my darling
'Til the stars fall from the sky

i can't stay
away
from the things that will kill me
anyways
i'm the worst
kind of way
i'm a shattered broken seed

i am empty promise
and words you can't take back
but still i can't get rid of you
i'm a soulless hunger
for woe and wonder
but still i can't get rid of you

you won't be
proud of me
when you find out who i am
born for blood
and slavery
i barely understand

i'm dressed for success
and built for protest
but still
i'm a broken home now
i'm suspect but somehow
i still can't get rid of you

i've capsized, waiting
my resolve, fading
and still
i'm kicking, screaming
but you stay with me
and still

i'm not worth the effort
i can't pay for the penalty fee
but if i come without a dollar
i come with all i need

just hope

oh,
so it goes
it's a consequence of the actions you chose
and though
you've no home
please don't go it alone

make
no mistake
there's a chance of pain, it's a risk you must take
hope
just hope

did you find yourself last summer
when she broke your heart in two
did the snow fall hard in December
did you wake up feeling new?

say
what you mean
it's your turn to speak and were all listening
speak
speak to me
we're all here to see

that you hold
your head high
we are more than all our feeble parts
sing
me your pain
it's gotta be true if it comes from the heart

when your grandma died last april
did you hold on tight to her hand
when she winked like she knew a secret
did you understand?

take all the time
we've got a eternity
you're doing fine
and i'm so glad it's
you're time to shine
can't tell you what this means
please spill your mind
just bare your heart to me

hope for the best
cry when you see sadness
hope all the same
it's not the point to
get it all right
it might be dark as night
but soon morning comes
and finally then we'll see

i hope you're listening

oh
so it goes
this is happening, it's the life that you chose
and though
you've no home
please don't go it alone

make
no mistake
there's a chance of pain, that's the risk that you take
hope
just hope

sleepless, playing a left-handed guitar in his uncle's rec-room and trying to think of how that's a metaphore for something.

Patricia looks up at the night sky and replies, "My father says that almost the whole world is asleep - everybody you know, everybody you see, everybody you talk to. He says that only a few people are awake, and they live in a state of constant, total amazement." - Joe v. Volcano.


i feel faceless
like i'll dissapear
but let me remember this
i need to be here

he's looking right through me
the day your ghost gave it up
my father cries, "oh lord please remember
please, god, just get up"

there's truth in every word
i should have listened
i should have listened more
there's joy in letting go
i should have listened
i should have listened more

i heard my father singing
with pain in his voice
"let the bones you have broken
cry out and rejoice

"let the one who cries longest
feel comfort at last
let us cry out for morning
because the long night has passed

"oh god please have mercy
son of david, be moved
give me eyes to see
come soon, lord, come soon

"because i feel like i'm failing
even while you move close
sometimes your spirit
feels cold like a ghost"

there's truth in every word
i should have listened
i should have listened more
there's joy in letting go
i should have listened
i should have listened more